Berns stopped by for a drink the other night. He was wearing his famous, tattered cashmere coat and not looking well. "I feel like Greece," he said. "I am Greece."
I proposed some old Polish Vodka out of the freezer and he agreed.
"Everyone I know is still looking for work and not finding any," he went on. "Most are giving up."
"Get a grip," I said. "You didn't think you were going to get a job at your age, did you? It's all rigged. Haven't you figured that out?"
"I still have certain skills."
"What are they? List them."
He shrugged his shoulders. "Branding expert; illustrator; mechanic; furniture designer, 'idea man', zoo keeper....I was also a bon vivant once. And before that, a jokesmith."
"What happened to that?"
"It didn't lead to anything substantial. Well, marriage if you count that. And now I can't remember any of the jokes. But worse than that I just feel like Greece. I feel like everything is collapsing. I feel like my Parthenon is in ruins."
"What's your Parthenon?"
"My mind, basically."
I told him he needed to stop being so I-I, me-me. Get out of yourself, I told him.
"No," he said. "I am. Actually I did find a job. Doesn't pay anything, but it keeps me out of trouble and actually it's a way where I feel I can go a and get a high dose of common misery?
"What is it?"
I've become a full time activist. And then he went on to tell me how he goes over to Oakland every day to be with the occupiers.
"Your father was a banker," I said.
"Don't you think I rue the day?"
"But so what do you do over there?"?
"We have 'mike check' and I talk to these kids about the old days. A lot of people are paranoid."
"You must feel right at home."
"I do and I don't."
"How long can you keep this up?"
"I can't; I'm done with it."
"Why?"
"You know why. Because it's fucking boring. I realize I can't stay with causes because they're so fucking boring."
I proposed some old Polish Vodka out of the freezer and he agreed.
"Everyone I know is still looking for work and not finding any," he went on. "Most are giving up."
"Get a grip," I said. "You didn't think you were going to get a job at your age, did you? It's all rigged. Haven't you figured that out?"
"I still have certain skills."
"What are they? List them."
He shrugged his shoulders. "Branding expert; illustrator; mechanic; furniture designer, 'idea man', zoo keeper....I was also a bon vivant once. And before that, a jokesmith."
"What happened to that?"
"It didn't lead to anything substantial. Well, marriage if you count that. And now I can't remember any of the jokes. But worse than that I just feel like Greece. I feel like everything is collapsing. I feel like my Parthenon is in ruins."
"What's your Parthenon?"
"My mind, basically."
I told him he needed to stop being so I-I, me-me. Get out of yourself, I told him.
"No," he said. "I am. Actually I did find a job. Doesn't pay anything, but it keeps me out of trouble and actually it's a way where I feel I can go a and get a high dose of common misery?
"What is it?"
I've become a full time activist. And then he went on to tell me how he goes over to Oakland every day to be with the occupiers.
"Your father was a banker," I said.
"Don't you think I rue the day?"
"But so what do you do over there?"?
"We have 'mike check' and I talk to these kids about the old days. A lot of people are paranoid."
"You must feel right at home."
"I do and I don't."
"How long can you keep this up?"
"I can't; I'm done with it."
"Why?"
"You know why. Because it's fucking boring. I realize I can't stay with causes because they're so fucking boring."